Friday, February 24, 2006
things progress. i have a new job, starting monday morning. the interview that i mentioned earlier apparently took. they called yesterday and said that i had the job and wouldn't need to go for the second interview with the area supervisor. now, i just have to quit the old one, something i'm not looking forward to. i think i'm going to do it the coward's way, just go into the office on saturday when no one is there, leave my keys and so forth with a note saying that i quit. i've done a really good job for those bastards, always made the bonuses because of performance but i've never been "accepted", being a faygelah in that macho environment. and since i don't look like the stereotype but haven't attempted to stay undercover, they probably didn't know what to think. fuck 'em.
haven't been laid since i don't know when. have a few tentatives lined up for the weekend, so we'll see. i beat off the other day and everything is back to normal, color wise, at least. so i won't have to worry about flipping anyone out with neon red semen. i just wish i could find a few steady hookups and stop having to look for sex. but i rarely hookup with anyone i want a second helping of, or when i do, they're more fucked up than i am.
like rick, who i fucked on a regular basis for the past 5 years. he's "straight", even though he'd rather have a hard cock up his ass than anything else. i was really turned on by him, really nice little body, nice dick and a really, really hot little ass which he loved having fucked. but, being "straight", that was the extent of it. he said he didn't suck dick because he is "straight". doesn't make out because he is "straight" boring as hell because he is "straight". when i told him we weren't getting together again, he was totally disbelieving. even after i explained why, he just didn't get it.
what else? one of my sisters and i are having the same dreams, again. several years ago, one of my sisters and i were having the same dreams and a series of sequential dreams, that unfolded like chapters in a story. we didn't find out until we were discussing our dreams and found out what was going on. now, another sister, who i never told about the first experience, and i are having the same dreams. the big recurrent one involves finding a secret room in the house where we grew up. a few weeks ago, while talking on the phone, she mentioned dreaming of our house and i told her about the dreams. she was amazed that she's dreamt the same scenario. yesterday, she mentioned that she'd dreamt about finding an indoor soccer court in a secret part of the house, much as i'd dreamt of finding a secret sports court in a house down the street from where we lived. i know that people can do this but i wonder what it means, particularly when the scenarios are so specific and strange.
haven't been laid since i don't know when. have a few tentatives lined up for the weekend, so we'll see. i beat off the other day and everything is back to normal, color wise, at least. so i won't have to worry about flipping anyone out with neon red semen. i just wish i could find a few steady hookups and stop having to look for sex. but i rarely hookup with anyone i want a second helping of, or when i do, they're more fucked up than i am.
like rick, who i fucked on a regular basis for the past 5 years. he's "straight", even though he'd rather have a hard cock up his ass than anything else. i was really turned on by him, really nice little body, nice dick and a really, really hot little ass which he loved having fucked. but, being "straight", that was the extent of it. he said he didn't suck dick because he is "straight". doesn't make out because he is "straight" boring as hell because he is "straight". when i told him we weren't getting together again, he was totally disbelieving. even after i explained why, he just didn't get it.
what else? one of my sisters and i are having the same dreams, again. several years ago, one of my sisters and i were having the same dreams and a series of sequential dreams, that unfolded like chapters in a story. we didn't find out until we were discussing our dreams and found out what was going on. now, another sister, who i never told about the first experience, and i are having the same dreams. the big recurrent one involves finding a secret room in the house where we grew up. a few weeks ago, while talking on the phone, she mentioned dreaming of our house and i told her about the dreams. she was amazed that she's dreamt the same scenario. yesterday, she mentioned that she'd dreamt about finding an indoor soccer court in a secret part of the house, much as i'd dreamt of finding a secret sports court in a house down the street from where we lived. i know that people can do this but i wonder what it means, particularly when the scenarios are so specific and strange.
# posted by rae121452 : 2/24/2006 04:43:00 AM
